April is Autism
Awareness month and while we are wrapping up I thought I would
reflect on my "awareness" ;-).
When Drew was
first diagnosed I remember feeling
helpless...hopeless...lost...terrified.... I wanted to "fix"
it.. "change" it... take it away. I searched and
hoped for a "cure" or a least something to make it
"better". And trust me I tried many "things". I
remember reading articles, blogs and posts from other parents wishing
and doing the same thing... and then I came across
something soooo interesting... it sounded off the wall and bat-shit
crazy.... SOME parents didn't wish autism away!!!! WHAT??!!! You're
kidding, right?? Who wouldn't want this horrible, terrifying, life
changing disorder GONE??? I know I did.... at one point. "They"
would say things like "autism is part of who he is..if you take
it away you would take away a part of him". Crazy people,
right???
Well Drew is
10, almost 11 and I have been traveling this journey for sometime now.
We have good days, GREAT days and some completely horrible, make them
go away, never want to remember them days... Autism SUCKS..
sometimes. I'm not gonna lie. But so do a LOT of things. Typical kids can be a challenge.. sometimes... Life is hard. Sometimes. So why treat autism
any differently? What does the future hold?? Who knows! No one
does. Not for any of our kids. All we have is now. I can not and will not waste
energy wondering or worrying about tomorrow.
Today brought
me to a new level of understanding, accepting, AWARENESS. Over the
years I have learned to surrender, embrace and let go so many aspects
of my life. Autism should be no different. And today I now TOTALLY
get those parents that didn't want a "magic pill" to make "it" disappear . Drew is
who he is. And I won't try to take any of it away... that includes autism.
Autism is a huge part of who Drew is
and without it there might not be this.... So bring it autism... I'll
take it :)
(and thanks Cole for letting me upload to your youtube channel... You ROCK too kiddo!! Love you both to pieces!)
"The darkest hour is just before the down":) I love that kid! I am soo happy I had the opportunity to cross paths with you guys, and I really believe this happened for a reason!
ReplyDeleteCila we can't imagine life without you! Thank you from the bottom of our hearts for being on this journey with us :)
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