It started about 3 years ago. The boys "won" some goldfish (can you say $.15 feeder fish) at summer camp. They named them "Fast" and "Nemo"
They were all right...the boys lost interest pretty quick (SHOCKER!!) and I got stuck taking care of them (another SHOCKER!). Let me say, I don't like fish... I resented having to feed them (which I BARELY did) and clean them (what's that??) and I couldn't wait for them to die!! (did I say that out loud?) But those f*ckers wouldn't die!!! Well until the other day... Fast looked pretty bad... almost dead.. but that little sh*t kept on moving everytime I would try to "fish" ;) him out and flush him!! But it was clear he wasn't going to make it .. YAY!! (did I just "yay"??.. *hangs head in shame*..) And finally he went to the big fishbowl in the sky...phew! Only one more, Nemo, needed to drop dead and I would be FREE!!! Free of additional duties I really didn't want. I didn't tell the boys that Fast died. I wanted to see if they would even notice. Well not 24 hours later Cole says " HEY where's Fast??" SHIT!! "Well son, he's dead" And then... then it happened.... he's eyes filled up with tears and at that moment I knew.. I knew I wouldn't be done with these damn FISH!! On a positive note, Drew didn't really care ;)!
So today we headed out to get "Fast #2" and "Rockin' Fish"....
They are ugly as H*LL... not even "gold"... and the only 2 that looked like this. .. but these were the ones they wanted :) And so far so good... everyone seems happy!
And I guess I'm happy too...well just a little..if it makes the boys happy then I'm happy (sorta!)... Oh and BTW did you know......
Happy Friday all!! Now go out and change your life... just don't do it with eyelash extensions, try a "gold"fish or two instead!
So today has been 3 weeks since Drew started medication. At first I saw some minor improvement but didn't really feel there was a WOW effect...but when I look back to where we were 3 weeks ago, 3 months ago... well you be the judge..
This was a few months ago. Drew hiding in the basement, tucked away in his "skweezer" (http://www.etsy.com/listing/55597817/solid-color-therapeutic-spacial-body?ref=pr_shop) during a thunder storm. Btw, the "skweezer" ROCKS!
And now 3 weeks into meds we have this...
This was on the way to school this morning. Drew had already checked the weather and knew we would have some storms today but he was still ALL smiles (and Cole as well... but he LOVES the rain!) Oh and btw Drew is back to eating the same thing EVERY day for lunch... I guess it could be worse . But sometimes he wants it for dinner as well. Not the hill I'll die on ;)
Which means weekly trips to IKEA and Trader Joe's (not that I mind!). And Dawn, this means you need to get that car from your kid!!
Yes THIS kid (not the dog).. Michaela I am talking to YOU!! Back away from the car.. for one day, please <3
OK well I digress .. sorry ;). SO today during school pick up it POURED!! Wind, rain, thunder, lightning, the WORKS.... and once we got home it was still raining and pouring and this, my friends (and family) was Drew...
UPSTAIRS, smiling, playing on the computer, blinds OPEN(he used to close them) and no tears. HOLY SH*T.... I think we may have our WOW effect!
Now don't get me wrong, we are still dealing with a tiny bit of anxiety but NOTHING like before... Thank you pharmaceuticals!!
And because we were soaked from the rain we decided to make the rest of the day PJ day....
The boys are off from school tomorrow so I think I'll put my feet up, pour a glass of wine(or 2!) and enjoy the WOW....
Happy Thursday :)
I hate to report this... but D-Day will NOT happening tomorrow.. :(.. I won't get into details because it's just so annoying BUT I know one day it WILL happen...There is a light at the end of this tunnel..a dim light but a light none the less.. So I'll be back here soon writing and posting about sh*t no one really cares about... alright maybe you care a little ;) Oh well it's just the reminder I need to live for today and be in the moment and not worry about tomorrow... So I'm off..off to be... to be me :) Peace people!
Alight, I am taking a full on break from this, although I have sooOOOooo much to say (as per usual!)... D-Day (divorce day) is scheduled YET AGAIN, for THIS friday Sept. 23 and I need to concentrate (right!) .... Fingers crossed, toes as well, chant, send vibes, pray, do whatever the f*ck you do... but just think of me a teeny weeny bit on Friday. I NEED this, I WANT this DONE... it's been a long time coming. So I will be doing ALL of the above hoping that this Friday is FINALLY the day.. guess I'll need to smudge again since I did it last time this was supposed to go down and never did.. I think the "smudging" has worn off ;) SO after this is all said and done I'll have a ton more sh*t to blog about... my favorite time of year is almost upon us.. FALL/WINTER!! Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas.. bring it!! Oh and Kelsey has finally moved in YAY!!!! This is going to be GREAT!! Love to all <3
Look what the kids can do...
But that's not what this post is about.. I just wanted to brag ;) and Cole REALLY wanted me to put this up on the blog... :D
Ok so I took Drew to our Neurologist last week.... and after a VERY long appointment and a LOT of discussion we decided to try Drew on medication for his anxiety and OCD issues. I guess I always knew we would come to this day and although some parents may be a wreck over this kind of decision, I am very at peace.. SCARED to death.. but at peace with my decision. He will be starting on a VERY low dose and once we find the right one, he will stay on it for a total of 2 months and then go off and "coast". The idea being that if he can overcome his anxiety and OCD ON meds and see that nothing bad happens, we HOPE that it will stick... and if not.. no big deal.. we go back on again. Now don't get me wrong, I am not thrilled that my 8 year old is on DRUGS!! (well legal prescription DRUGS) but I know he needs "something". And although it has only been barely a week I see many positive things!! REALLY!! His comprehension is better. His communication is better. That hat has been off for longer periods of time!!! BUT he did have a MAJOR meltdown this morning.. scary meltdown and I wasn't even sure if he could go to school (not blaming the meds but who knows!)... but we have the most AMAZING person in our lives (we have a few others as well..I think you know who you are!) ... Ms. C (Drew's aide) and she made it all better... really she is a miracle worker... Now I may just really WANT to believe the meds are working/helping...but I really think they are.. :) The meltdown was big and Ms. C was able to defuse it but I really think he is better able to handle all that is being thrown at him right now much better ( school starting, new teacher, etc)...all in all I am thrilled..I know there is no miracle drug to "fix" Drew's autism (I don't even think that is the right word, I'm not trying to "fix" him.. just help and support) but I do know that I will do all I can to make life more manageable for him... AND Cole too. Got to work on that kid as well!... Now what the hell do I get to make life more manageable??? Oh right, wine and chocolate.. ok I'll take it :)
Oh and the kid (Drew) who b*tched and moaned about having his picture taken today (today was picture day) seemed to have gotten over it and had it done...(THANK YOU Ms. C for making it happen!!) I only had a little bit of luck this morning..
So look what we can do on MEDS!!! and a little help from some of our favorite people!!! Happy Tuesday all :)
I created this blog as a sort of diary....a running tale for my boys to look back on and well, for your entertainment;)..ok I know it's not THAT entertaining! Humor me please.... I have many childhood memories and some more vivid then others that I want to share with them...
When Peter (my brother) and I were little, we were EXTREMELY skinny (me not so much anymore!!) ....
My Dad would say he could tell us apart just by feel...feeling our backs!!! I thought he had special powers.. He would close his eyes, we would switch around a few times and he would GRAB our backs!! Well the skin on our backs!! Now like I said, Peter and I were really skinny kids...but I ALWAYS had back "fat"..well at least that's what I called it. He could ALWAYS get a huge "chunk" of my back skin in his hands and almost NONE of Peter's(but I never REALLY knew that's how he knew until I was waaay older and Dad finally gave away his "secret")... SO try as we may, switching and squirming and giggling, Dad could ALWAYS tell who was who... I thought it was magic! But it was because of my back "fat"!!
He never guessed wrong :)... Funny how vivid this memory is... I can still feel him grabbing a HUNK of skin on my back and as much as it hurt we would have him do it again and again!!
SoOOoo this morning, laying in bed, Cole came in and crawled under the blankets with me... I lay there rubbing his back....and then.... the memory of my Dad and the back "fat" poured into my mind... I thought "Hmmmm I wonder if I could tell my kids apart by a bit of a back "fat" squeeze??...And so Cole got a grab...DAMN that kid is skinny! I could barely "pinch" a bit of back skin.... a few moments later Drew crawled into bed with us..."Ahhh", I thought, "my next victim!"..and then came the squeeze...and guess what??? Drew has a bit more back "fat"!! And I could totally tell them apart (even though both are very skinny..just like Peter and I were!)....All those years I thought my Dad was magical..had special powers...:) And now I'm the parent and I can do the same cool trick!!! ...Wait a minute... My Dad was special and magical and stuff and maybe just maybe he passed down his magical special powers to ME!!! And well at least for now the boys think it's pretty magical!! And well, honestly, so do I :) So the tradition continues ..... back "fat" squeezing! The boys ask HOW I know... and for now, I'll let them believe I have super powers ( ummm I DO! ) ... sorta like the "little birdie" I have following them around at school...but that's a WHOLE other post for a different day ;)!
So thanks Dad for the wonderful memory :) I love that I can continue the tradition(if you can call it that!!(back "fat" squeezing!)
) with the boys!...
Happy Saturday everyone!!
Well today was the first day of school...well HALF first day...ugh!! What's the point?? The rest of the week are full days. YAY!!! No really, I'm only a little happy :D!! They seemed happy...
Well not really. It took a bit of poking and prodding to yield the ^ above ... neither really wanted to get up... and I think there was a BIT of apprehension... We actually started the morning like this...
Mom: "Hey guys time to get up!" Kids: " NO, NEVER!!!"..(hiding under blankets). But over all a good first day(what a relief!)..BIG SIGH!!! Let's see what the rest of the week brings(no homework..I hope. I'M NOT READY!!!)... And before all this fun first day frenzy we had this...
I dubbed summer 2011 the summer of pizza, pjs, popcorn and pimples... because that's ALL we did...(alright not ALL we did...but a BIG part!)
And it felt f*in FANTASTIC!!! Nothing better then the kids staying in their pjs till noon.. popcorn for breakfast and pizza for lunch...and dinner ;). An now you may ask..."what the hell is with the pimple??" WELL for some reason Cole had a reoccurring pimple on his nose ALL summer..sorry no picture(he wouldn't let me!)But what's with my 8 year old getting a pimple??? Overall an amazing summer with my boys and a tiny part of me will miss them now that they are back in school and the other part is a little worried 3rd grade will be waaaay harder then 2nd.... I guess I'll be a total wreck by the time they hit high school!!! Check in with me then ;). And wish me us luck with surviving 3rd grade.... They We can't wait till our first break ;)!!
Seriously... I got nothing. Nothing witty to say, no funny pictures, no cute and adorable stories...(because under normal circumstances I do!! Always, all the time!) NOTHING!!! OMG could this blog thing be coming to an end already??? Say it ain't so!!! Nah... seriously, those that know me, know I NEVER shut up... I think I'm just being lazy :)
I guess maybe I have TOO much going on and I am feeling a bit disjointed, un-centered, and generally unorganized . I can not BELIEVE school starts in a few days. I sorta liked letting my kids stay in their PJs till.....ummm NOON!! I'm feeling a little stale..not fresh..and I don't mean THAT kind of fresh!!(but some may argue!) Just cloudy and pooped :) I know in a weeks time, with the boys back at school I will find the clarity and energy to blog AGAIN!! But in the mean time I got NOTHING...well except for amazing friends, amazing family, amazing kids, amazing dogs, blah blah blah and a shit head for a cat..(but we still love her...sorta!!) Oh wait, I have a kid who has had his hat off since he showered about 10 minutes ago.... oh yeah, that's right...you heard me... "SHOWERED"!!! 2 days in a row!!! Take that people!! MY KIDS ARE CLEAN!!! for now ;) Alright so clearly I have more than nothing.. But I got nothing for y'all!! And I may be cloudy and not so fresh but I am.... hmmm, what the H*LL am I??? Alright DON'T say it!!! Bye for now... back when my thoughts are clear and I am "FRESH!" Oh and btw, the kid has his hat back on :(... but he just told me his FAVORITE book is the Pout-Pout Fish(mine too!!)..and he's "spreading cheery-cheeries All over the place!"... SMOOOOOCH!!
